>Friday, 17 October 2008<
hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry..
really hungry how......
stuck in this class. now is 1.20. class ending at 3.15pm.
hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry..
should have grab sth to eat b4 class.
hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry..
can someone save me. =<
*damn i type a whole chunk of things yet it is not saved. i am suppose to retype it! arg.**
i feel so tired now. mentally tired.
Despite having ended my exams and some projects, i still feel very tired.
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I feel so cheated by adults.
When i was in primary school, that adults would reassure me that if i study hard and do well, i would have a comfortable life in the future, work in a big company, be a big manger, earn big money and lead a good life. Being naive, i believed. i made it to the express stream in secondary school. Not a good school but i manage to survive.
When i get into a secondary School, i was told that if i study hard, make it to Junior College, it guarantee me a place in University. Being naive, i believed. i studied hard. I was glad i made it to Junior College.
When i get into Junior College. i realised they were all wrong. i was not guaranteed a seat in University but i have no turning back, all that i can do, is the close my eye and run. Praying hard nothing goes wrong. But on a bright note, i was told that A level is the last stage in education life. After A level, things will be better. University is a very relaxing place. i believed. AGAIN.
Now that i have got into university. i realised they are all wrong. I am awoken from being naive, being dumb all while. Indeed, university has the freedom to plan your own time. However, what are there to plan? When to meet which group for group project? When to meet each professor for consultation? what kind of life is this?
So what if i were to make it big in the future? with greater power come greater responsibility. with greater responsibility comes higher stress level. Is that the comfortable life adults have been reassuring me of? I rather do a low level job and lead a simple life. at least i will be more happy.
but nvm. i will still survive. I have made it that far, i can survive through.
its not easy but i can do it. so many people survive through. why cant i? =)
i am not that weak.
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back to reality. i am going to study hard. =)
missing you...
Friday, October 17, 2008
